Everything is so hard & stressful

There are so many things that happened today. when he calls me its like you will make me sad .you make a good day into a bad one. just by talking to me because you blame stuff on me so many times i feel likes its my fault. im going to treat you the same that you treated me one day when i was caring you were down and when i tried to help you wouldnt let me so im just going to do the same. i care for the people i talk to on the phone and the people who im friends with but then they just get so annoying that they wont care any more. i dream the day i can find that right person that will listen and wont judge you and annoy you. People dont know about you because of how embarassing you act and how annoying you are. its so impossible of how i can stay and not leave and not be so embarassed. I talk to so many people and meet so many people and talk to them boy or gurl. School is getting so stressful to because of your grades and plus to you have to do some other things to . im tired of this stresss and stuff cause its so annoying. Being here without you is been hard for so long but im use to it. no more i wanna leave and be out but my other part of me says no.